unknown sanity

Mixed filled emotions controlling my every move and word. What will i do next, im afraid im not to sure. Just want to be left alone, why dont these people understand me. Sanity is what i claim, but immoral is what i am. People walk into this tunnel of darkness and turn around before getting to the glory. Would you sit down and listen to my story. Clean out your ears and clear out your head. Everyone thinks but no one knows, by the time they get it ill be good and dead. Stubborn i maybe but for reasons you may not see. Look inside much deeper that your mind and you will understand my kind.

still darkness

Opening your window to hear my

words with your door

locked not allowing yourself to

listen to my tears as

i cry out.

Like a child i wheep for

you but to no prevail

im still on these cold dark streets.

For years i have

been stuck in this black

hole searching

for the light to guide me

out.

Im a mouse in a maze

searching for my

cheese only to realize

my hunger is

forever and im stuck

in this rat trap

for life.

:(

on bended knee

Thousands of broken promises ontop of millions of lies untold. Hearts being broken and names being called all do to my sense of selfishness and stupidity. Now unwanted but begging on bended knee for your forgiveness. Your love for me was once as sweet as honey from a bees nest. Due to my ignorance and neglegance you have turned cold and cruel. Turning your soul as black as night cuz i left your side. Kneeling in front of you on bended knee i ask you for one last chance. No more promises, just a vow for no more pain and know more tears. Only my love and assurance that im always here by your side. Pleeing with you on bended knee i hope and pray you wont break free but hold me tight allowing us to be lovers for an eternity.

LETTER TO MY MOM

ITS TIME I MOVED ON, IM FINALLY READY TO BE DONE WITH ALL THE DRAMA AND PAIN. CANT LIVE MY LIFE WITH YOU HOLDING ME BACK. ALL THE LIES AND BETRAIL GOT ME GOING SO MADLY INSANE I CAN NO LONGER SUBSTAIN. ITS HARD TO SAY BUT IM LEAVING YOU BEHIND. ALL OF YOUR TIRESOME ANTICKS OF MAKING ME MISERABLE BECAUSE OF YOUR JEALOUSY HAS GOT TO COME TO AN END. YEAR AFTER YEAR IVE WAITED FOR YOU TO CHANGE. SEEMS LIKE DAY BY DAY WE GROW FUTHER APART. YOUVE RUINED HALF OF MY LIFE AND SHATERED MY UP MOST IMPORTANT DREAMS.....THOUGHT ALL MY LIFE I COULDNT MAKE IT WITHOUT U THERE. BUT NOW I REALIZE THAT YOUVE INTERVEENED OVERLY TO FAR.SORRY TO SAY IM MOVING ON AND IM LEAVING YOU BEHIND..........NO MORE TEARS OF SORROW FOR YOU OR MENTAL BRAKE DOWNS FROM THE DAILY HEADACHES YOUVE CAUSED ME...........YOUR WAY OF LIFE IS NOLONGER MINES IM MOVING FOWARD AND NO LONGER LETTING YOU PULL ME AWAY FROM MY DESTINY...........GOODBYE

LIVE YOUR LIFE

LIFE IS SOMETHING THAT IS JUST SO SERIOUS ITS JUST SOMETHING THATS NOT MENT TO BE FUCKED WITH....SOMETHING SO MEANINGFULL THAT YOU HAVE SO LITTLE TIME TO FULLFILL.....DO WHAT YOU DO CUZ THERES NO TIME FOR REGRETS....U MAKE A MISTAKE SO WHAT ITS DONE AND OVER WITH SO JUST KEEP IT MOVING......NEVER LOOK BACK CUZ IT KEEPS YOU FROM MOVIN FOWARD.......TAKE CHANCES DONT TRY AND BECAREFULL CUZ YOU WILL GET NO WHERE AND YOULL BE STUCK WONDERIN "WHAT IF".........LIVE YA LIFE, DONT LET IT LIVE YOU....HAVE FUN.......AND YOULL DIE A HAPPIER PERSON........